Monday, January 30, 2017

Letter To God v3

Dear God,

I know it's been awhile, since I've written to you
But what to write, I had not a clue
There was this girl, a friend of mine
with beautiful eyes and a smile divine
I loved her eyes, I loved her laugh
She truly was, my other half
Maybe it was wrong, how hard I fell
but when I was with her, my heart would swell
Together we'd spend, hours at night
Kissing and cuddling, until it got light
Maybe I sinned, maybe it was wrong
but my feelings for her, were too damn strong
I asked her to marry me, and she said yes
And in her arms, I felt blessed

Time went by, the years slipped away
But no matter what, I'll remember the day
The day she came to me and sat me down
and told me just what, the doctor had found
Inside her womb, now grew our child
and for a moment, I went wild
This was great news, for someone like me,
It was hard to believe, I was a father-to-be

I know you don't understand, why I did not write
When the life you gave me, was happy and bright
You knew I was thankful, and happy for it all
I just never expected to have a great fall
I waited outside the delivery room
Feeling like the anxious groom
Waiting and waiting for my son to be born
Only to result in a heart that was torn

Why did you do? Why'd you take him away?
Why couldn't you just, let him stay?
You called him to, the heavens above
Where he would be yours, to hold and to love
But why God why, did she go too?
Was one death not enough, for me to go through?
I don't understand it, it doesn't make sense
The sorrow in my heart, became immense
I did everything right, were you mad at me?
Was happy not, what I was meant to be?
Did I fail as a husband? Where did I go wrong?
I always made sure, my prayers were long
I spent so much time down on my knees
For it was you I wanted to please

I guess it just wasn't enough in the end
I had to watch their souls transcend
The least I could say, is that I tried
To be faithful and stay on your good side
I wanted to keep you happy, but it couldn't be done
You took away my wife, after my son
If this was a test, I failed, you win
Because loving her was never a sin

So here's the letter, I promised to write
When I held my wife, close at night
Before my son had been taken away
When I only had, good things to say

Here's the letter, I promised to write
When my future appeared, happy and bright
But things have changed, and so have I
I spent my time, trying to get by
But it's just not in me, to let things go
Losing my wife, was a fatal blow
I find myself wishing, it had been me you had taken
wishing you realized, you were mistaken
I wanted you to come, to take me away
And with my wife and son I'd stay
but that is impossible, and now I know why
Everything I learned about you's a lie
There is no God, it can't be true
Nobody deserves the pain I went through

No more oxygen, no more hope
How am I supposed to cope?
How could the god they claim to know
be the one who sinks so low
to take away a man's wife and son
Leaving him with a loaded gun
But it's not for you, it's for me
My eyes are open, I finally see
I found a way, to be with my wife
By taking away, my very own life
Together we'll be, in the land of the lost
where we'll be happy, no matter the cost


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